Every once in a while I find myself in a rut. Not your average, "I'm really tired rut" but more of a "I have no idea in which direction my life is going and the future scares me".
Not only does the future scare me, I don't even feel like myself anymore. I suppose it's a result of all the changes happening recently, or maybe I'm too focused on the future and have forgotten to live in the moment in order to pave that path. I find myself hoping that things will go back to normal - but I'm not even sure what normal is anymore!
For so long I've been living under layers of stress and pressure and that was my normal. Now that I have less responsibilities, I need to re-define my normal. Rather than jumping from one high pressure situation to another (my specialty) I need to step back, breathe and redefine.
At the end of the day, I really just need to feel passionate about something again.
I think it's really easy to confuse stress for passion. But I think being truly passionate about something needs to incorporate a level of love for what you're doing. For a while I would work myself to the bone to prove that I was passionate about my work, but in the process I lost the love I had for it.
I think the moral in this story is that it's okay to not be so rigid about things.
Life isn't black and white, and it's important to embrace change.
Create a new normal.
Stare change bravely in the face.
Have you ever had to redefine your normal?